I just found a post I made to a Yahoo Transsexual Group in 2002 and I feel so sad. I can't believe that my feelings were as strong back then yet I've not come far physically in solving my life problem. Here is the post...( Read more... )

I don’t understand how I am meant to fix this so called problem I have. I admit that it is tempting to ignore it and throw myself into something new in life, though I don’t see this as a wise move. It isn’t going to go away without proper some kind of healing procedure.

At this point in my life I happen to only see one solution to my problem. ( Read more... )

I have felt lost lately and like an unwritten chapter in a book. It feels like I’m the one trying to write my own book and my own suggestions and other peoples are making it hard to concentrate. I know I don’t want to be someone else for someone else because I feel I’ve been there to often. I just want to be true to myself whatever path that may ( Read more... )

It was interesting what I spoke about with my counsellor this afternoon. Some things really sounded like they ringed true and some things were just obvious. One thing that I think will always crop up is not being surrounded by more females in my life than males. The suggestion was put forward that most of my earliest learning in life was a lot ( Read more... )

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I decided to try on step-sister Sarah’s ballet kit because I wanted to go to ballet like my sisters, and remember the feeling it gave me. Remember feeling how right it felt and the happiness it brought me. Although, I knew it was something I had to do in secret so I felt sad about that. I then started to wear Sarah’s clothes when no one ( Read more... )